found a poem i had written

Shadow

You can't get rid of it,
it follows you wherever you go.
And yet, you can't get one step closer to it.
As soon as there's a spark of light-
And you don't want to live in the dark
(For you won't be able to)-
It's there
waiting for you.

You hate it,
As you can't have it,
But still: you know you love it.
The challenge to hold it,
To own it,
Always lay in the distance between you,
To provoke you.

And no matter how paradox it might sound-
It’s a fact of life,
But you always forget knowing it:
It only exists because you do,
It actually stems from you,
It's part of you,
See…It's you!

But no, you will not see
You see, but you don't see,
don't want to see.

Hana Abdel Salam